This Is Real . This Is me

I felt like standing on the bridge right now ,  Im waiting for something that i never know . 
am i crazy ? lets other people think about me . they can say whatever about me . they didnt ever know me as well .
honestly . im waiting for you , to accompany me in the darkness , being my light , holding my hands . I thought that you'd be here , but you will never here . yes . you wont be here with me . Just me .

have you ever trying to find me ? is anyone will searching me ? i dunno . realized show that you never trying to find me . no one would take me back . is anybody here in the world ? 


i walk in the midnight . alone . no one accompany me this time . 
then i sing along 


" it's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
Im looking for a place
Im searching for a place
Is anybody here 
I know  "


Why is every thing so confusing? WHY ? i've tried to find the answer . but , the answer isn't found . 
i believe . no one could live alone , no one would like being a " loner " . but i cant refuse this condition . i dont wanna be a loner . but the fact is ' I am a LONER '